The Night Broke

I've made a lot of them.

My ex and I broke up about seven months ago. Then, we attempted to be roommates. All the while with her trying to fix something that simply was not meant to be. She was a good woman, her temper and her judgement were simply not compatible with the way I operate. Though I did try. But there were some things that happened that I could never forgive, and that was what ended us. While we were attempting to live together, I started talking to someone that I had ...

Sometimes, I think I was meant for more than what I've become. I know, this isn't meant to be the release for self pity, and I'm not completely sure that's what I'm doing. I'm not sure I feel exactly sorry for myself, I just know things could have been so much different. I was so smart in high school, and then it was like.. I don't know, a switch was flipped, and I just didn't care anymore. For almost two full years I didn't attend. Those two years were my junior and senior years. And then, at ...

I keep trying to be a more talkative person, and it keeps not working. Some people say that's okay, that's one of the best things about me. Other people say it's holding me back. I personally don't know. Does one have to be ultimately outgoing in order to make it places? I don't think so. I think it does hold me back with people. I get myself into situations where my "mild demeanor" cause me to get taken advantage of. At work, at home.. especially with my family. I'll go ahead and give ...

Okay, so, I'm supposed to start a weight loss blog type deal. That's not really my thing.. the whole spilling your thoughts thing. But, I guess, this could work. To date, I've lost fifty pounds. Just fifty more to go. I did it once, I can do it again. I'm kind of determined. Which is good. So, there. I've posted something to keep my goals in my thoughts. And I've posted it to the DF, so I can't think of a better place to post this stuff.

I've been a member of the DF for... I don't know, about five years, not a very active member. Going to change that now that I pay the bills and I know the internet will be on next month. But, not getting into any of that... So, this being my first blog, in May, I finally got to go see AFI live. Not something I had ever been able to do before, seeing as my situation had been a little to the... can't afford to breathe side of things. But, once out on my own, the first time I got a chance, I went. ...