The Curious Case of Diane Elisabeth

It's as if I only ever use this thing when bad shit happens.

We found out today that my dad is dying. His heart is pumping at only 36% percent and the doctor wasn't able to estimate a time frame for how long he might live.

I am finding it very hard to deal with. I cannot except the fact that I am losing my dad. I can't imagine him not being on this earth and it scares the shit out of me and I am really just completely confused.

My mom has to talk with ...

Well, today was my last day of seeing the original "Cute Boy" for a while. He's leaving tomorrow for the Air Force. He came in while I was working to say bye to some people (me being a big reason, as I was told). I was working in first window and I saw him pull in. My heart jumped a lot because I haven't seen him in a couple of weeks. Well, he came in and pretty much headed straight to the window and said "Alright, give me a hug." So I did. And it was a ginormous and wonderful ...

My dad is in the hospital. This time he has pneumonia, gall stones, and infected bowel duct, and needs a heart catheter put in. They can't remove his gall bladder until they do a heart cath and they can;t do a heart cath until the infection/pneumonia clears up.

He is in a lot of pain because of the gall stones. I just hope that he gets well soon. I'm afraid that something may happen since he has so much wrong at once. I'm staying positive, though.

2009 can go fuck itself. ...

Okay, I found another photo that I felt that I needed to post.

This is my nephew Josh and my sister Jeannie.



I'm not sure exactly when this was taken, but I think it was taken within the last year. Jeannie has been gone for three months and Josh has been gone for two weeks. I love this picture so, so much. I think they both look so happy ...

I decided to post a few pictures of my family. I will include some in the comments, as well.


This is a photo of my oldest siblings. L-R from the top: My sister Brenda, my sister Jan (who is going through cancer treatments right now), my sister Rhonda (who is a breast cancer survivor), my brother Kenny, and my late sister Jeannie. I know that if you've read any of my past blogs, you've heard something about her. I think this was taken about a month before she died.
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