shine

i have an anniversary coming up next week and i want to get some cute underoos for the special evening.
i totally do not have the budget for victoria's secret, nor do i much like the colors/styles in the store. been there, done that, failed.

question 1) where the hell should i shop? i've got about a $40-45 budget and i'd like whatever i get to be decently wearable after the weekend. he loooves blues and greens and i look good in that general color scheme.

question ...

I DID NOT ASK YOU TO MAKE ME FEEL WORSE.
DO NOT WANT.

chris had to put his dog down yesterday :[
his mom was so upset she had him call and ask if i would come up to keep her company. and of course i did. it was a hard night.. chris didn't sleep well either. he kept grabbing for me every time i rolled over.

i've always maintained that i'd be an amazing girlfriend and now that i've had the chance to show it i feel like its not getting reciprocated.
...

so i can pay my phone bill and have gas to get to school.
thats how broke i am right now.

awesome

i'm pretty sure its just because things have been stressful for both of us but i've really been wondering if it wouldn't be better for me to end things with chris. god, that sucks. i just can't deal with not being able to see him when i need him. and if he wasn't mine to see.. i don't know if it would be easier or not.

i'm good at being alone. i can deal with that.
but i can not deal with being alone when its not something i can control. if that makes sense. i can't have ...

can you text message cheat?

lucky for my boyfriend he's got a string of exes and he gets along with most of them pretty well. no complaints there, it doesn't often happen that a relationship ends and a friendship can continue. kudos.
anyway. some bitch decides to get in a fight with her boyfriend and then text my boyfriend at like midnight the other night and pull all this 'are you still attracted to me can i come over do you think it would be all right if we hooked up so ...