It's 1:21am here
I hate it when my parents tell me to sleep.
Fucking hell, just leave me alone.
Freaking fuck shit face. ARGHGH mother fuckers
ok i think i let it out
In the middle of another rough patch.
I hate relying on this person to make me happy. its not total reliance, no. it cant seem to make any sense when i am with this person but my mind plays stupid tricks.
this is the first time in a few months i have considered another break. but i wouldnt be able to being myself to do it. no way. not again. but is it because i am way too scared? to break out of the comfort zone? in the long run would this be better for me?
I'm sorry I acted like such a spaz, you know I was just disappointed about Friday and you know that I don't want anything to change between us, but I can't help but feel something has. Ever since that month away when you came back- it hasn't felt right.
This has happened before, and i was afraid the same thing would happen between us.
Because it's nearly in the process.
I don't want to lose you. Just thinking about it now though, makes it seem like a possibility.
Okay, here's the thing I hate about facebook and one of the reasons why I put off getting it for so long: The Stalking. Either being stalked or me doing the stalking cos I just KNOW that there will be stuff I don't really wanna know.
But I got it just for the sake of it.
ANd In terms of "wishing I didn't know some facts" well... one of those stupid stalking moments - I didnt even fucking stalk - it was more, seeing someone's info and what not. and just seeing something
Ok I woke up this morning and had THE weirdest dream. I have no idea why I had it, or even why I am blogging about it now. I think I just need to make sense of it.
The dream was extremely sexual. Like we're talking damn intercourse here. And I am not an overly sleazy type of person who sleeps around so I don't know if thats my subconscious saying I should (haha).
Another really weird thing was I dreamt I had sex with this guy. A guy who I know through the internet. Is my