If you only knew...

Shit is REAL. Ohhh Board O' Despair, I used to come here everyday like clockwork now I feel I'm growing apart. It is saddening a bit knowing that this place that's been a huge part of my life for so long is now something I never pay attention to. Oh well. We grow up, get older and move on.

I still need a job. I'm dying of boredom and being broke. FUCK THIS ECONOMY.

I will be in a different state, in a new city, in a new home. I kinda can't believe it. I mean, I just printed off my boarding pass and I still can't register that this is it for me and that I'm leaving and won't be living here tomorrow. It's so surreal, I don't know how to even go about it. I don't think it will hit me until either I'm seeing my family off, take off or when I see my boy waiting for me at the airport. This is crazy.

What. Is. My. Life?

X:Jess Blaqk[DF] ...

In Texas. I'm kinda freaking out because it's hitting me now. I'm also all sorts of freaking out because I've never flown alone and I don't get all the technical shit you have to do before you can even board the damn plane. I've only flown once and it was like when I was 12. -_-

I'm stressed, paranoid and freaking the fuck out. It kinda makes me feel weird knowing I'm not going to be living here anymore. It's a bittersweet feeling but I know where I'm going is better for my mental ...

So, they know I'm leaving soon and they've all been ignoring me. But not individually, they've been COLLECTIVELY ignoring me. They'll all hang out, together, but never bother to even text me and ask if I want to hang out. They know I don't work anymore and still nothing. <_<

I kinda feel good that none of them will see this, and I kinda wish they would but it's whatever really.

I just got a text from a 'friend' of mine (one of the people who only texts me when ...

This is my 2010 blog about none other than 2010. I’m gonna crack open my journal and sift through some old DF blogs to dig up all the stuff I’ve been though this year. I’ll try my best to keep it organized by month and not leave out anything that could be important.

This year was hectic. I’ve had incredibly high highs and unbelievably low, lows but I know that, in the end, I did what was right for me. This next year will be full of surprises and many adventures with new friends and ...