Til I'm out of Texas. I'm worried, stressed, excited and paranoid but I'm so happy I'm taking the step towards a different life.
Can't wait to get out of here and be somewhere else,
X: Jess Blaqk[DF]
So as most know, I'm moving far away from home/Texas/this hellhole soon. The title explains a bit. It's 2 days until my 19th birthday and it seriously doesn't seem like it's been a year already It's unsettling, really. The year has gone by so fast and I don't feel like I've achieved anything yet. Boo.
I'm flying out in 32 days; hence the title. I'm preparing for the move mentally. I still need to get some things before I move but I don't have money right now so I don't know how this
I got paid today and I spent the majority on a flight out of Texas. I'm leaving January 15th and I don't plan on returning any time soon. (Maybe for family visits, but even that I'd like to limit.)
I'm excited. It's really happening. I'M GETTING THE FUCK OUT OF HERE.
/short, happy spazz blog.
X: Jess Blaqk[DF]
I feel totally lame with this song reference but it makes a lot of sense to me right now. I'm learning to spread my wings and fly away from a situation that I'd long since outgrown.
I'm still working at Old Navy and I did take the 6 hour driver's ed course. (You'll know what I'm talking about if you read my last blog.) All I need now is to go do the actual driving part of the test and I'll have a license. I'm not too worried because everyone knows that I've been driving for 3 or 4
That seems to be the encouraging words I need to hear lately yet at the same time, they hold me back.
They literally protect me with reminding me that letting my old life die is a good thing. They also hold me back by me thinking that I need to be protected from leaving the confides of this cage I call home. I know I have to get out...it's just a process.
So far, I'm helping myself out by getting a temporary job working at Old Navy. It's a 20 minute drive outside of
Updated 11-04-10 at 09:59 PM by Jess Blaqk