If you only knew...

I didn't write this out anywhere because I felt that sitting here and writing what comes to mind feels so much more natural to me. I'm sitting here half-baked, trying to think of the proper words to express the sadness that's inside of me. So today was probably one of the worst days I've weathered in a very long time and I'm still drained from the day's worries and stress. I'm not sure where I'm going with life and I feel more scared and alone than ever now...
My boyfriend and I have been ...

It's become a sad reality lately that I'm more used to hearing and have become accepting of the words "I don't want you here. You are useless. Leave." than "I love you. You can do whatever you put your mind to. You are a good person." What has the world come to? I don't know but I sure as hell don't like it.

Why am I posting this here and basically airing my 'dirty laundry' on the DF boards? For attention? For sympathy? Far from it. This is my escape from everything. ...

See what I did there? Oh shut up, you know you giggled a bit. :P You honestly don't know how hard I fought to be able to go to this show. Oh my god, it was insane.

So yea, last night I attended the AFI/Green Day show in Dallas Texas at the *lame title* Superpages.com Center. So it's time to blog about it!

We (Brandy[rubbergoose87], Chris[my boyfriend] and I) left my house at I think 10am. We arrived to the East gate at around 11 or 11:30am. We were shocked that there ...

Because you apparently didn't care about me. It's sad I wasted all that time being hung up on you while you lived carefree and I suffered alone. It's ok though, I'm fine now without you. It's a damn shame too because I really did care about you and I shared everything with you. You were a great friend and I'm going to miss all the conversing we used to do on a regular basis. I tried so hard to tell myself that it would pay out in the end and I even ignored the words of the people that cared about ...

It's so fucking weak. I'm sick of all the drama. Now it's not my family...it's my boyfriend's family. Here's the damn breakdown.


So Chris and Charlie's mom got mad at Charlie because he stayed out passed his curfew last night and so his mom and step dad got into an argument so he tried to leave so he didn't have to witness it and they told him he couldn't leave. His step dad called the cops because he was trying to leave without their permission. His step dad is an abusive ...