MY BEHFRANZ!x

Jasmine was the only one who came over for my birthday, even though i invited several people. I think I preferred it this way, though.

She got here around 11:30am yesterday and she left about half an hour ago. We walked to two different convenience stores, one today, one yesterday. She showed me her house today. I met her Dad. Her sister walked with us.

We spent most of yesterday walking, playing with my dog, and hanging out. We got pizza and Dairy Queen for dinner ...

I am fifteen as of yesterday. I can drive now with an adult. SWEET.

I failed the test but I just paid another $5 and took the test again and passed. WOO!

My birthday was pretty neato. My friends are coming over tomorrow night and my friend Jasmine is sleeping over. Tomorrow is the DOMA protest, which I was stuck organizing as of today.

I loved my birthday thread and profile messages. I love you all.

I'm distancing myself from everyone I love. I'm on edge all day close to tears. I hate this. Thursday, I had three people ask if I was mad at them, because I haven't been saying anything, really. I don't want my friends to hate me or think i don't like them. I just feel like I can't think of what to say.

I've been crying too much lately. Any little thing sets me off. Nothing makes me truly happy anymore. I eat too much or not enough and lay in bed all day. The things I used to pride ...

Shitfuck.

I like this girl I am friends with, Mandi. I am good friends with this girl, Anna. Anna and Mandi dated for like a week, but they've been friends for a while. Anna still likes Mandi.

I think Mandi is the first girl I have any inkling of a chance with. I've never dated anyone before because I had no real desire to date guys, and I was afraid of what people would think of me dating girls. Anna says she's fine with me liking Mandi but I still feel bad about it. ...

The past two were the coolest fucking days ever.

On Monday, Rachel and I, along with my mom and sister and her cousin, went to the mall because the park was closed due to rain. It was really fun. We walked up and down about 4 times and shopped a little. We talked a lot. Then we went to Fazolli's or however the hell it's spelled. Rachel gave me a stuffed panda from the zoo and it is fucking cute (AND NOT UGLY.) She says he looks like a sloth. He kind of does. His name is Slothbear. ...