Oh sure, blame the emo kid. How original.

Sometimes it gets really discouraging being afraid of absolutely everything, afraid to go outside or do anything social because I'm afraid of having a panic attack. I can't go in a crowded place without silently freaking out, thinking everyone is judging me. I can't text a friend about something important because I'm terrified of "annoying" them. I always think people are mad at me for no reason, I feel like everything I do is taken wrong, and I dwell on it. And sometimes I'm afraid of ...

Originally Posted by xMissViciousx

This is what AFI means to me...

-AFI is the music that flows through my veins.
-AFI is my lullaby.
-AFI is my inspiration.
-AFI gets me through the day.
-AFI makes me not feel so alone.
-AFI is the reason I find when I have nothing else, something to hold on to.
-AFI is the perfect expression of my emotions when I can't find the words.
-AFI is my comfort when I'm afraid of the silence.
-AFI is the beauty I find when everything

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I'm currently dyeing my hair as we speak. I'm actually typing this with bleach on my hair. Shitt, some just got on my eyebrow!!! Great, now I'm going to have a fucked up half blonde eyebrow. Eh, oh well. Anyway, my hair is going to be white blonde on one side, and blue black on the back and the other side. It's a little Cruella Deville-esque. I was going to do two skunk streaks down the back as well, but I decided it would be too much of a pain in the ass where I have to redo the black and my hair ...