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Again a little update on my school.

I've been growing so accustomed to the quietness of the farm. When I step outside of the school, I can sit down, listen to the waterfall, look at the greenhouse and the garden around it. Every now and then, there is a tractor driving down the road, which seems like the most normal thing ever. Walking to the stall to get some fresh milk from the tank doesn't seem like it needs any questions. I actually feel at home there.

Being the ...

I feel like I've been having to tell myself this a hell of a lot lately and to be honest, I'm pretty fucking sick of it.

It's like every time I am given a little bit of wiggle room to have a smile on my face, it's violently ripped from my expression. I'm really over elementary mind game/game playing bullshit. I'm way better than that am I'm just over all of it. I've had to grow up a hell of a lot over the course of the past few months and all these little setbacks equal one huge let ...

So I've had this account for a little over a year now and never really got around to using it much. MySpace has become so dead! FB is nice, but the DF is much more interesting considering we all have one main interest in common. Doesn't ever seem like there's much drama on here either, which is always a plus. My goal is to start chatting with more DF-ers and to be online more often. I love meeting new people! Especially those who have love fot AFI as much as I do<3 If any of you actually take ...

My now ex girlfriend and I broke 2 days ago after almost a year, because she wanted to make sure she wasn't completely into guys, which I was fine with and I understand. But I obviously am having a very hard time with it, but she really doesn't seem to be, which kind of hurts...a lot... the first night, I called her and we talked and cried etc. and seemed to be on relatively the same page, and she seemed to feel awful about breaking up with me.

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ive been having way too many ups and downs lately. the infection i had earlier in the month seemed to have triggered a virus and that destroyed me. i was shattered, and the worst part is i ended up comforting my boyfriend instead of the other way around. i just do not understand how it happened. we werent stupid, we've been careful, and it still happens. the doctors said it could have happened because its able to pass through even though he has no signs of it, but i kiss him everyday and i do not ...