Bleeding dark into the leaves.

Today, I broke up with Steven. It's over between us. 9 months of wonderful relationship has come to a close. I would explain, but it there is just so much to say, that I'd rather just leave it alone. I'm really going to miss him, and it hurts so bad to have to do this, but I know that this is what I need to do. We held each other and cried for hours. He's going home next week. This has been incredibly painful for both of us. I feel so heavy, I hate that I have to be this person in his life, it hurts like no other. Thank you for everything. I love you, and I'm sorry.

The biggest thing that has been helping me get through this is Crash Love, and if you haven't heard it you need to get in contact with me ASAP and hear it. It's beyond amazing, and some of this music is the only thing that helping me right now.

Oh, and in the midst of all the sadness, I forgot to mention that I just got a new job. It's a seasonal job, but it's a job. It'll help me get some things I need. Right now what I have is nothing. I may be working at Macy's also. I'm going to try and throw myself into my work, maybe it will help me. I know it will help me financially.

I feel heavy.