If you only knew...
Fuck it all. I wanna give up. (I feel like I'm spamming the blog feed.)
by, 09-03-10 at 04:18 PM (1337 Views)
So yea, the military guys came and took Chris away earlier today. They apparently told him that he had to come with them and that they needed him. He only took his uniform and I believe, his cell phone. (Which is getting cut off on the 5th.) I don't know how to feel. I'm hurt and sad and just really depressed because I'm alone. I won't see him for probably a long time, if I ever do. God only knows what the military is going to do to him. I'm really upset because I didn't get to tell him goodbye and kiss him one last time. The more I think about it, the more I want to cry my eyes out.
I am thankful that the last spoken words I said to him were, "I'll see you tomorrow. I love you so much." and the last he said to me were "I love you too." I'm hurting so bad right now. I'm so lost. The last text he got from me that I know he got I told him "I love you. Sweet dreams." and "I'll see you tomorrow." I'm afraid to delete my texts because I don't want to lose the last thing from him I might have for a while.
:'( :'( :'(
I'm so over life in general right now.