Nasty Nate

well... i've got a good bit on my mind so i'll try and compose them in an efficient manner.

yes, i'm writing on the never-ending subject of sibling problems. just to get this out of the way, i know i'm not perfect and of course have my own faults. but i need to address a situation that i feel can be very serious, if not develop into something serious.

my brother. my twin. i've been saying it and i'll continue to say it: he's an asshole. yes. it's not very nice, and i write this even as he sits mere feet away from me. but jesus... i really don't understand what he thinks about besides himself. it's unbelievable. i'll spare the throngs of examples i could relate and just stick to this most recent one.

basically, we're at my parents' house and my mom cooked this nice dinner because my cousin and her husband were coming through. my brother doesn't do the dishes. no, he doesn't clean up anything, doesn't lift a finger. i'll just add that he never does the dishes, anyway, nor does he even put his dishes in the dishwasher. but this is about tonight.

so my cousin is here just for tonight because she and her husband are driving from chicago to new jersey and decided to stop here. my mom even went to my house (which i am moved out of) to pick up my brother so he could be here for dinner and to see my family. initially my mom and i were going to go out to dinner tonight but then my cousin notified us last night that they'd be rolling our way, so she decided to make dinner here.

we did the usual thing and chatted for a bit at the table after dinner. eventually, i got up to start cleaning up, because i am a good son and actually help my mother out (no, i am not just saying that to be a pompous jerk, my parents and older brother have noted my twin's behavior quite well). so i load the dishwasher and hand wash all the big pots and bowls and stuff. not unbelievably, my brother doesn't even ask to help, he doesn't even clear his own plate. he sat at the table talking to my cousin and her husband, which i guess could be construed as acceptable since we don't see them often. but... jesus... he NEVER cleans up after my mom cooks dinner. he never does anything to help anyone except himself, and usually he relies on other people to help him because he seems to always put in the least effort for the most reward.

i wish i wasn't writing these words. he is such a self-centered asshole. nevermind his loathsome demeanor. but jesus christ. you're 26 years old and still act like a child. it's to the point where my mom constantly says that she can't rely on him and therefore i am assigned all the responsibilities that she might need a son to do. he doesn't feed or take out the dogs, he doesn't clean or vacuum, never cooks food for anyone, never buys food for anyone... and it sounds like i'm just bitching and moaning, BUT IT'S TRUE!!

tell me, DF, if your mom cooks you dinner do you clean up the dishes for her? what the fuck is the problem?? i don't understand his thought process. he literally is only concerned with himself. it's fucking disgusting. i can't even think about it anymore... there are so many other unresolved issues besides this. i just can't believe that this man shares my dna. i feel that when we are 40 he'll still be the same person and he won't listen when i tell him that. it's just... i don't know. upsetting, disturbing, unbelievable, disappointing? pick your word.

like i said, i'm not perfect and i have problems of my own. but dammit, i try to be self aware, and i really try to change. i have changed quite a bit, i'd say. but even my parents would agree that phil has been the same since he was a kid. i don't know what else to say. clean the fucking dishes for your mom, you asshole.