Nasty Nate

well... i just want to say a few things that i've been brooding over recently. basically, i was going to write about my experience last week seeing omar rodriguez at the grog shop, because it concerns concert crowds and how people don't know how to behave. i figured that people might be relatively interested because we all see live music.

but the more i think about it, the more i equate the ideas to this forum. it's a slightly different take on what i was thinking, but it really has some striking similarities. for instance, it is basically futile to even try to rationalize with people. and i guess "rationality" is subjective, but i try to see the different perspectives around here.

mostly, what seems to equate to "communicating" on this board amounts to nothing more than blurting out a monosyllabic sentence or two, generally in some arrogant, self gratifying tone that ultimately says nothing beyond "i think i'm right, and this is wrong", usually with no explanation given. yes, that was a long sentence...
it's kind of like facebook nowadays, where people just post meaningless jargon just so they can see themselves write, comparable to someone who speaks just to hear themselves talk.

i mean, it's fun to make sounds. i always make sounds. i talk to myself. i like writing. it's exciting. but science h. logic, does anybody really fucking say anything anymore? this forum has degenerated to a bunch of masturbatory nonsense. yea, i guess i'm participating in that right now, but i'm at least trying to make a point with constructed ideas. here's an example of the threads around here (which i just came up with, and could be as exaggerated as i want):

name #1: ohh i like [band name here], they are soooo l33t!
name #2: i totally agree
name #3: lol
name #4: wtf!!? ftw! lolz! jfk
name #5: their new song is good
name #6: i hate this band. their first album is the best. i want to hear the same thing over and over again. i can't stand when musicians do something different from what i'm used to hearing
name #7: obligatory thread derailment. i am going to talk about how my cat farts in my face when i'm sitting at my computer

haha... yea... a bit dramatic, i suppose. consequently, people say words and never really say anything at all. i don't ever see people really discussing ideas or concepts, except when someone thinks they can talk about civil rights, or some related social issue. generally these threads are disasters and begin with someone being offended, then starting a diatribe about all of their thoughts, which is pages long and no one wants to read. not that we can't talk about things that really matter, but it usually ends up being this self-righteous bullshit that fails to achieve anything. (yes i realize i could be guilty of that right now!)

lastly, i wanted to comment on this false sense of irony that is everywhere. there are so many things people say that try to be ironic, or maybe they are ironic, and it's all in this effort to uphold this flawed ideal or sort of "internet personality". i think this comes a lot through sarcasm. it's not that sarcasm is necessarily wrong or that we can't have it, but people are constantly sarcastic to the point that it is just stupid and meaningless. it's always "lol, this is sooo cool, no srly guyz i luv wut you r saying!!". well, not quite that... but in so many words. people try to be sarcastic and ironic to the point that the only irony is the fact that the whole idea backfires and it ends up being even dumber than it appears. this goes back to the idea of saying something without really saying anything. in this backwards effort to express a point of view, all meaning is lost because the only motive is self-satisfaction. hmm... i rather like that sentence. that was poignant, i think.

in closing, i've not much to say. just... can we have actual exchange of ideas around here? it seems that every thread amounts to "agree with this, or disagree, or say something completely irrelevant, but don't bother articulating any sort of thought process". yea, i know that this is all pretty backhanded and spiteful. but dammit, i have been on this forum for 7 years now and anymore it's a waste of time to even try to say anything. i guess this is probably a waste of time, too, but i enjoy writing and i want to just get these thoughts out of my head. that's another thing- i try to be self aware. i wasn't so good at this before, but i think i'm getting there. and yes, i realize this is all rather incendiary. well, that's how it is.

i might edit this some time to better illustrate my thoughts, but i am done. i love music.