mukashimukashi...

yay! well sort of yay. when i found out friday morning, i was ecstatic. then about an hour later i was miserable. im going to be away from all of my friends and family for the entire summer. i know it sounds childish, but ive never had to deal with it before...or deal with a lost summer.

like when i went off to college my freshman year. i was away from my boyfriend and family, but i had one of my best friends from high school there with me.
now its going to be me, stuck in rochester with no transportation (which is going to be a big problem when i cant get my prescriptions ><), living with possibly 3 randoms, my boyfriend is going to be in connecticut for 6 months, and my family cant afford to visit all that often. hell, im even having trouble affording to stay in school housing for the summer. its gonna be about $160 a week, and i'll be here for about 13 weeks til the fall quarter kicks in. problem is, and its a REALLY STUPID problem, housing wants me to pay it all in a lump sum. if it specifically lists a price per week, why cant we just pay per week? thats what the co-op is supposed to help with people! yeesh.
one reason must be so when people leave for a week and they still keep the money, but i dont care. i'll pay for every week im here, or my stuff is here, but with how much that costs im not going to be able to afford it because honestly, what college kid has $2000 lying around? i dont!

i'm also worried about the long distance issue again. granted the first time my boyfriend and i were long distance was right after our 6 month, and now we've been together for over 3 years, but its still hard to deal with.
he also had to contact a friend who is going to be stuck in the dorms(hahah the dorms) to "save" his spot when he comes back in the winter. this friend doesnt seem the least bit scummy, so im sure he will move out when winter comes...(winter is coming hehehehheehe cant not laugh at that each time they say it in the show) but now i'll be living with 3 dudes, one of which ive known since highschool, the other is a total boob, and a newer friend from college. i'll be spending much more time in my room this fall :S or maybe i will be more outgoing. eh.

it just sucks growing up i guess. that was kind of the whole point to this blog. being away from the people you love, struggling to make ends meet. how does that sound like a desirable life to live? i've kind of had separation issues since the thing that happened with my sister, which probably doesnt help the cause, but either way life doesnt seem worth living if all im going to do is struggle and hurt constantly.

hopefully im just hyping this up way too much and i will still have an enjoyable summer, who knows.