mukashimukashi...

so i was on facebook today, and someone from my japanese 1 class i took last fall posted a status. i was like hey, i agree with that. so i liked it. a few hours ago, i got bored and looked through fb again and i hovered over that persons name in my feed and it said add as friend. i was seriously confused as to why their posts were still popping up in my feed if they unfriended me and thats when i really learned about subscribing.
god its creepy.
first i was embarrassed that i liked something of someone who wasnt even on my friends list anymore, and then i just got creeped out that facebook allows this. so yea, people can now choose to post to friends or public right? thats so stupid. why not keep it simple with accepting or declining friend requests? so someone can friend someone else, that person can decline it, but the other person can just subscribe to them? gahhh.
then i got paranoid and wondered how many other people may have unfriended me without me knowing because i was 'subscribed' to them? but then i click on subscriptions and apparently im not subscribed to anyone but thats a lie, facebook.

my light keeps hardcore flickering and its weirding me out. the light in my bedroom at home does that, but only when someone's using the microwave o.O

oh, and the sad part of this whole hoopla (the whining). the fact that no one wants to be my friend. honestly, that person had a lot more in common with me than most of my really close friends do, but they didnt want to be my friend.
someone who i did absolutely nothing to just up and decided to not talk to me anymore
and then that other person that called me a c**t was supposedly my friend but obviously not. i'm alright with that 'friendship' ending though. they were a huge weenie.

its just....is there something that wrong with me? is it my personality? i guess i did change a lot after what happened over the past three years but i just feel more shy, not necessarily more unpleasant (when i first meet people anyway). and i didnt know 2 of these people until i came to college so that shouldnt affect anything. i guess what im trying to say is, its hard making friends :\ especially when you come into a new college as a transfer, and everyone else already has friends. and then how guys dominate more than half of the population on this campus doesnt help either because a lot of these guys are tech guys...like engineers or IT or the game design dudes......and that should speak for itself. (no offense to any one who may be in one of these fields. im in the same college as game design.) and as i've said before, i'm in the major where there are like 20 guys to 4 girls in most classes.

AND WHY ARE THERE ALWAYS SPIDERS AROUND? first there was one on my bike, and now on the bathroom door. seriously why does life torture me like this?
i should just stab the can of bug killer spray my mom got me and toss it like a grenade into my apartment before i leave tomorrow...after i put my fishies in a safe spot so they dont get sprayed...cause that would be bad.