Janelle

Good God. My friend Shawn is going to be the death of me. Since there are so many reasons for this that would make this blog a ridiculous length, I'll keep it to Shawn's most recent offenses.

First, one day last week, we had this really odd conversation over AIM where he made tons of sexual innuendo & insisted that I explain every single one to illustrate that I understood it, which I quickly was uncomfortable with & refused to do. Near the end of the conversation, he went so far as to insinuate he was masturbating at the time. He later felt horribly for it, so much so that he lost sleep & kept apologizing, but it was odd.

A day or so later, he tells me he's developing "feelings" for me, which I handled surprisingly well. But he has a girlfriend, & even if she wasn't in the picture, I would never consider dating Shawn. If I did, I think Marion & Sarah would both kill me. This fact is only an issue on occasion, when he makes some awkward comment.

Shawn's girlfriend is a whole other issue. Most recently, she's gotten this idea in here head that Shawn's gonna leave her since he's not going home every weekend. This may be a slight over reaction, yes, but if Shawn would just go home for one weekend & spend some time with her it would probably make her feel tons better. So what does Shawn do? Make excuses for why he can't go home. It's too far for his parents to drive (it's about 45 minutes one way, which for one weekend isn't bad), he has work to do, he has flag football, it's too hard for him to get home. It honestly is starting to sound like he doesn't give a shit, or is avoiding her.

And as if this isn't already long enough, I give you the most recent reason Shawn has been driving me up a wall, although it's been going since maybe before the whole sex conversation.

Shawn starts a conversation with some form of, "What's up?", which is all well & good. We talk for a while, & eventually hit a lull in conversation, as usually happens. All this is over AIM. Now usually, over AIM, when both parties have stopped talking, it's assumed that the conversation is over. Not with Shawn. With Shawn, he asks some form of, "What's up?" all over again, leading to a continuous loop of pointless conversation. He does this every day. For as long as one of us is online. So I can get asked "What's up?" a few times PER HOUR. As a result, I talk to Shawn more then most of my other friends combined. As a result, I get angry & short with him & even once asked him why he did it, but I don't even remember what his answer was. It's gotten to a point where I put away messages up just to avoid him, because he won't message me if I'm away, although this is seemingly starting to change.

I mentioned I don't talk to anyone else this often. I couldn't. It would kill me. I can not interact this much with another person, I just can't. I need time to myself, & I just don't get it when I get a million IMs from the same person in a day.

If I get asked "What's up?" more than once today, it ain't gonna be pretty.