There is nothing to see here and that nothing gazes back.

There are times that I look at myself and wonder what I've become. I've been living in this kind of purgatory for the past four years. I don't seem to evolve anymore I just grow older and more stagnant day by day. I don't like it. I've become boring and complacent. I have so much unused potential and I don't know why I'm so afraid to utilize it. Taking the reigns of life has always been a problem to me. I feel like if I tie myself down to something I'll miss out on what life has to offer but at the same time I know its the only way to move forward. I'm so immature in so many ways, I see the problems I have that need to be fixed. I try not to make excuses but, trying is just not enough anymore. I've got to pull myself back together. I must let go of the past. There is nothing left to hold onto. I want and I need to prove that I'm worth something. There is a place where I fit, the only thing left to do is find out where and how.