Coffee and Caffeine Induced Lunacy.

But there is one thing I am asking for and if there is a God or some sort of almighty deity, then maybe s/he'll hear what I'm saying and know what I'm thinking and just not let these things that could happen actually happen.

I don't ask for much, but don't let these two things happen.

Please?

Moving on.

I haven't posted or said much recently. I've been busy. School, work, home. School, work, home. Working on getting a second job, a weekender. Owing money all across the board. Ugh. Stress. I hate it. Things are looking to possibly get worse before they get better.

I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday, to get a colposcopy. In layman's terms, I'm getting a cervical biopsy. Now, normally, this would just frustrate me because it takes time out of my day when I could be working. And seeing as I've had to do this before, I don't like the idea of my legs being all spread eagle in stirrups while someone snips a bit of skin from right next to my babymaker. But the last time wasn't so bad. I knew why I had pulled up an abnormal Pap smear test result and knew why they had to do this.

I don't know why I'm going in this time. All they've told me is that "You pulled up an abnormal result on your Pap smear. We're not sure what it is, so we need you to come in for another colposcopy."

Say what????

I'm sure the fact that I've just recently found out that my mom's side has a history of female problems that include but are not limited to ovarian cancer, cervical cancer, uterine cancer and a history of hysterectomies ISN'T MAKING THINGS BETTER.

So yeah, I'm now freaked that I'm going to get a call after all of this saying "You need to come in and speak to a doctor."

Uuuuugh. DAMN MY BABYMAKER!