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I finally talked to somebody and I'm fucking terrified.

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Katie.
, 12-29-08 at 07:03 PM (471 Views)
I've been concerned about my mental health for years now. I really only whined about it to the people on here I chat with almost every night (sorry you guys), but I opened up to my mom about four months ago when I hit my all-time low. She suggested I speak to a therapist, and I said I would, but I chickened out. I mean, I am terrified of taking that step.

I basically had a breakdown a couple days ago and my mom sat me down and wanted to hear everything. So I told her. She said when I get back to school and get settled in again she's going to make sure I make the appointment so I can start getting the help we all know I need. I know it's for the best, but it's so overwhelming. Ugh.

I'm afraid I have a chemical imbalance of some kind and will have to take pills forever to get 'fixed' or whatever. I feel like a defect and just want to be normal.

Updated 12-29-08 at 10:22 PM by Katie.

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  1. Haras Nosnhoj's Avatar
    duuudeee i was wondering where you've been. once you go to the therapist for the first time, im sure it'll feel like 500 pounds were lifted off of your shoulders. if you need someone else to talk to you know i got your back, gurl.
  2. Nicky's Avatar
    um... Good luck and Godspeed.
  3. Jess Blaqk's Avatar
    I know the feeling and I have been dealing with something similar for a while. I know it's hard at first to open up to a stranger but I promise it does help in the long run. I was scared about being medicated too and after I was prescribed some medication I realized how much it helped me. Hun, you are not defective....

    Boardie love,
    Jess
  4. Smegz's Avatar
    I can understand completely, I'm going through almost the exact same feelings... You're not alone.
  5. Katie.'s Avatar
    Nicky reuses comments! haha

    Thanks guys. <3.
  6. Rachel!'s Avatar
    <3!
  7. Undercover's Avatar
    I hope it makes you feel a lot better <3
  8. Blaqkwinter's Avatar
    It happened to me lately.But it was to be done.I feel much better now.
  9. Logan C's Avatar
    All I can say is be honest with whomever you talk to, it really helps. It's very hard to open up, but you just have to do it.