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Get it a lot? Stressed out to the point of anxiety? yeah, happens all the time to me. But yesterday, I swear I thought I was going to have a melt down. It was a baddddd time.

So I got an 84 on an English paper (AP Lit). Now, in my school thats a C+. I don't really do the whole letter grade thing but just thinking about a C freaks me the hell out. Everyone in that class is a GENIUS. I sit there and I listen to a few people speak and I'm blown away. It's not over my head or anything, like i understand completely and I love love love love listening to them but I don't usually think of those things on my own, but love thinking about them afterwards.

Anyway, so everyone gets A's and high B's and here I am with a C+ freaking out. I love English and the worst part is that I am just not great at it. It does not come naturally to me. Creative writing, yeah I can do that, but analyzing stuff and throwing it in a paper with a thesis=SUCKAGE.

Also, this is what I want to do with my life. Or so I thought. But if I suck at it this much, how can I do that? It's so scary. I fear failure SO SO SO much and this is scaring the crap out of me.

Board, Help me out here. I'm freaking out and I don't understand how I can teach this stuff if I'm not doing well in the class. I know that I want to be a creative writing teacher and stuff like that but this is so important. I know I will fail the AP exam at this rate.