I beleive that everyone has a different experience with bands and music in general, it has a different effect on each of us and we all use it for a different reason. So it is this belief that got me thinking about what AFI means to me and what they have done for me, which in turn got me thinking about all your guys stories about the band and their music. I'm not asking any of you to open up yourselves as i understand some things are personal and some don't feel comfortable sharing, which i completely understand as i was once like that myself.
So i guess to get us started i will share my AFI story so here goes.
It was about mid 2006 when i first heard the sweet sounds of Davey's voice, one of my fellow class mates was listening to a song which i had no idea what it was, i just knew i liked it and had to find out who it was. After some research on iTunes i found the song was Miss Murder, i immediately downloaded it and kept it on repeat. I had no idea the band had a back catalog, so i never heard anything pre DU until much later on.
I loved the band that i had discovered but never thought to look to see if they had any previous releases.
Roughly about 2-3 years ago i fell into a deep depression, where i was questioning my existence, planning my own suicide, deforming my own body through self-harm and isolating myself from my family and friends. I had dreams where i would actual kill myself and wake up crying, i turned to music to distract me and just get me though the day ahead, if i wasn't in the classroom at school i would be alone somewhere with my iPod in and deforming my body, i would deliberately go off alone and remove myself from social situations so i could do this deformation, i had become addicted to cutting myself which did not help me cope with my depression. It was during this time i found one of the most influential and life changing albums of all time which you all know as Sing The Sorrow, i listened to it non-stop, and after about a week of non-stop plays i knew every lyric, riff and spoken word parts to the album.
People ended up noticing what i had been doing to myself and that i had a problem and pretty much forced me to go see someone, which i did not want to do at first, but in the end it did help, i came out of it a much more aware of my mental condition, and how i can cope with it.
Anyways my point to all of this is that i felt (even though it may sound lame, strange, stupid or other insulting words you can think of) but when no-one was there, when i had no-one to depend on, AFI was there, singing to me, and it wasn't just Sing The Sorrow i had on repeat, i discovered all of AFI's work and listened to everything from Dork, ATASF all the way up to DU and now (since 2009) Crash Love, AFI are one of the biggest parts of my life and mean the world to me, they were there when i felt no-one else was and essentially they did save my life. I am forever in their debt, i just wish i could tell them that, i wish they could read this post, just so they would know the influence they have had on me.
At the present time i am still suffering from depression, but whenever i do feel down i put on AFI and sing along, and i now think that AFI has influenced me to do something in the music industry, through AFI i have discovered my passion for music.
So not only have they helped me through one of the most toughest times of my life so far they have helped steer me in the direction career wise.